kirks test results came back all normal!!!!! YAY!  so it IS me :) and you are thinking - wait - shes happy its her?!?!  well to be honest  - if it was him i think it could be damaging to the relationship because deep down inside the selfish vindictive part of me would blame him and i would resent him over time - and its not that i am a bitch - everyone had that side to them - i just recognize mine and know how i would react. .....mental note - talk to kirk and see if he has these feeling for me   ......

anyway - my joyous period (eye rolling) came 5 days early so i was not able to get my blood drawn this week - seem the doc wants from the time after i ovulate and before my next period.  SO when they called to tell me about kirk i told them about y early visitor and now i have to take my basal temp from the 20th to the 27th and report it on the 27th.  after that it seems i get to partake in a outpatient thingy where they put dye up there and take x-rays of them trying to see a blockage in my tubes.  

as far as emotional wise - i think im doing ok - granted i have my moments - lol poor kirk - he comes home yesterday and says i think the lady that moved in next door is pregnant - she is getting a little pooch coming out - and i snapped and said "Well thanks for pointing that out to me since i obviously am NOT able to get pregnant - lets add a little salt to the wound"  his face was pretty reserved but i know he thought i was being a bitch - and i was.....but i DID apologize - lol another mental note - ...take it easy on the hubby......
other moments im fine - really - and i dont let it rule my mind.  i just take each day one at a time and enjoy my family